Man I had a rough day. Well that’s not exactly true. I liked it in a way. I woke up and did this spin class at a gym I started going to in December. And that was great. The instructor really gets people going. And sometimes when I’m pedaling to the rhythm of the music I feel like I’m riding up a mountain, and everything in my life is falling into place. On every beat he’s screaming “Work! Work! Work!” and it makes me go harder than what I thought I could. And I think about my life, when I’m practicing my banjo and I just want to go home and watch a movie. But I should keep playing and getting better. I’ve realized that life is nothing without struggle, and if you’re not sweating, if you’re not bleeding, if you’re not on the verge of water welling in your eyes you’re not doing enough. Never settle, never be less.
I had a tough day because after that I was angry about some people in my life. But none of that really matters. Because it felt good to be angry, to stand on ground that wouldn’t crack. It’s easy aiming to be someone when you know there are people who you will never be like. It makes writing songs easier, seeing life and seeing what is true. I don’t think you can write a song, or anything really if you don’t know what you’re going after. And that attracts me to people, when they’re on fire about something.
I got my boots back today. There is a little shop on Wilshire Blvd and a man who works there. He’s alone there, working in his workshop. I had him replace the soles in my boots because they had holes in them. I picked them up and my face lit up seeing what good work he had done. And he saw the smile on my face and his face started to glow as well. We were both happy and I was glad to pay him. And now I’ll be walking in strong boots, and I’ll think about that man and spinning on a fake bike on the top floor of a gym. And I’ll know that what’s great is made out of a struggle, just like the dried rock that comes shooting out of the earth when it’s still liquid and glowing. If you want to tell me that life isn’t about chiseling something into being, protecting it and crafting it so that it can’t be changed or molded into anything other than what you envision then I would tell you you’re wrong.